Last night was the best talk ever! Yes! Aku ade menangis! But it is totally worth it.
We just have the talk. There’s no argument. On some circumstances, I kind of agree with what he said. And he agreed on mine.
Aku? Agree on ape orang cakap. But seriously shit, last night I do agree on his.
Not a single quarrel. Just talk.
He talk about his past. His childhood. And so do I.
Kind of weird when that talk about past and childhood kind of sorts everything out.
Why I’m behaving like this and why did he behaved like that.
Every single thing sorts out.
We even express our feeling. How we took each others behaviors’. What to do to make things better.
And we did find out how to make things better.
ACCEPTANCE!
Somehow aku rase, that is the key in relationship. Saling menerime kelemahan masing masing.
He said that “Kite bertuah sebab kite tak pnah gaduh hal pasal oragn ketige. Tapi kite bergaduh sebab hal hal yang macam ni yang boleh diselesaikan,”
Then I realized. This is better. Rather than just standing on our ego and keep on fighting. So aku rase, I’m going to put this to an end.
“When the fairytale ends, the reality sets in.”
What is the fairytale in a lovelife? A perfect love. Love without tears. Without problems. Happily ever after. All of that are fairytales.
Then the reality will sets in. What’s the reality you asked?
Short term happiness. Short term sadness. Unperfect love. Unperfect person. Broken dreams. Broken promises.
And that. That are all reality.
So now I know. The only thing to do is to accept. Yes! To accept.
And now. I do! Seriously shit I accepted.
Satu yang aku nampak! Aku SAYANG die gile babi! SAYANG ketat ketat!
Yes! Aku nak this relationship to never end.
Aku sayang die and somehow I kind of know die sayang aku jugak.
And wanna know what? Aku macam dah percaye yang die dah berubah. Yes! That particular past won’t be repeated again.
Macammane kalau jadi jugak? Well I think I’ve prepared enough. And macam aku cakap kan. Tak pernah ade istilah peluang ketige dalam hidup aku.
Tapi well. He have been the exception on most of my list. Tak tau lah kalau ngan die there will be a third chance.
Ape ape pun, I’m just pray for the best, and prepare for the worst and put my hopes down down low.
YES! AKU SAYANG DIE! AND SUME YANG JADI JUST BECAUSE AKU RINDU KAN DIE!
Mengade ngade kan kau. Hahaha.
Anyway, what up with that hamstergirl?
It’s is not that I like hamster. Not at all. I hate that creature. I’m more to a cat person.
Wah! Aku benci lah kao hamster cadok. Bodoh! Bangang!
Well nape aku benci? Kan hamster comel. Pegi mampos same comel. Ouh keje mereka neyh menggigit je tau. Rendam dalam air hidup2 baru tau! Benci aku.
Yes I was the victim. Aku digigit. Eh eh. Hamster ade rabies tak? Mangkok tol.
Okey aku admit memang aku yang salah. Sebab aku yang gi cocok bontot die time die tido. Tapi ape ke bangan gi gigit aku makhluk?
Well that’s why I called myself hamstergirl. Sebab I was bitten by a hamster.
Sebab spider man was a spider man sebab die was bit by a spider.
Bat man may be bitten by bat.
Hahahahahaha. So who am I? I’m Hamstersgirl!
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p/s : that hamster story tak de kene mengena dengan my sayang. I LOVE YOU. YES! Not the hamster! My sayang ofcourse.
